What an amazing piece of writing. My stomach literally hurt as I was reading it. I had so many different emotions. Absolute rage (although at who, I have no idea) that you somehow got the message that you were not worthy of someone who loves and respects you and is willing to work as hard as you do on a relationship. Sadness at the thought of all those wasted years. Panic at the worry that you might not take this wonderful freedom and use it to heal yourself and show your children that you - and they- are worthy of so much more than you have had. Sending you support and strength.